HITTING MY EXPIRATION DATE?
Age may just be a number, but when there’s a really BIG number looming on the birthday horizon, it’s impossible not to ruminate about its significance. So, hang on my lovelies (men included here) while I meander my way along this muddy streambed.
I came across this interesting little tidbit. In 1950 the life expectancy for newborns was around 60 years, and only in parts of the world with advanced nutrition and health care like North America. I was born in Canada in 1949. Since 60 has come and gone, I’ve definitely outlived my original expiration date! I say original, with my fingers crossed, because in later years the global, average, life expectancy was raised to 72.6 years. That number, 72, tucked itself into the recesses of my subconscious. In my forties I took out a life insurance policy that would expire at 72.
When we’re in our twenties, as hard as it is then to imagine getting old, we still entertain expectations of how life would be by the time we reached certain milestone birthdays. As life progresses, reality usually pushes imaginings into the nearest ditch. I know I don’t speak for everyone, but….
By the time I hit 60, I’d long let go of my picture of reaching that “ripe, old age” surrounded by grandchildren and a large, extended family. I actually felt anything but old when I turned 60. Relieved, maybe, to have made it that far after a cancer diagnosis at 51, but not old. The decade between 50 and 60 had been a bit of a bitch. So, by the time I turned 60, I was into living life and ready to make up for lost time, which I started doing right out of the gate. On my 60th birthday, my husband joined me for my first ballroom dance lesson. Jumping on the birthday bandwagon he also arranged for a golf lesson with a pro, and took me on my first ever bike ride along a biking trail. The weekend included a super Italian dinner with our kids (blended family), finished off with a great cake! I was on a roll.
I continued racking up new experiences: the exhilaration (pure terror) of my first snow skiing lesson including a face-plant in the snow (ski lift exit), the nervous thrill of stepping out of my comfort zone to dance in expos and competitions (ballroom & country-western), and the total rush of zip-lining five courses as I tried to keep up with a cousin 20+ years my junior. I made memories travelling with girlfriends. We expanded our family by one additional recue dog and a Humane Society cat. As I continued to hone my writing skills, more stories and poems were accepted for publication. I started revising one of my draft novels. I even ventured back into the classroom, becoming a student for the first time in 30 years. I hit 70 on a high note. My husband brought my best friend over from England as a birthday surprise, and my finished novel was published a few weeks before the end of that year.
So, you ask, if the big traumatic event isn’t turning 60 or even 70, then what the hell is it? Turning SEVENTY-TWO, I say, a little tremulously! That subconsciously feared expiration date of 72 recently jumped out of hiding and started strutting its stuff. The numbers flashed in front of my face like a huge, neon billboard. The words reverberated like being inside Big Ben at high noon. (At least before its bells were shut down for repairs. A hint maybe that I should shut down for repairs?)
It’s always interesting what ends up buried in one’s mind and even more interesting is when it decides to claw its way up to the surface. Bloody hell. Get a grip, woman. Deep breath. I believe I now have all of this angst more or less sorted and under control.
So…statistics be damned. I’m not done yet! (My mouth to God’s ear.) I have books waiting to be read, friendships to explore, writing to tackle, French to re-learn, and wonders to capture with my camera lens. I’m not ready to let go of most of my “stuff” (although I’ve started passing some of it on.) I need to live long enough to outlive my critters and ensure they are loved, but not so long that I outlive my husband. I don’t think I could make it on my own.
I will acknowledge the BIG 72 with a grateful heart, a few regrets I’m coming to terms with, and optimistic plans that extend a few years out. And, damn the diet; however I spend the big day it will include CAKE. Have you seen the viral video where a cake is “carved” via being scooped up with wine glasses. THIS ONE ! I want to do THAT!!
So, on February 2, please raise a glass with me (filled with cake or champagne, your choice), as I venture forward. I’ll banish entrenched old thinking, and toast to being here same time next year to celebrate turning 73. You are all invited. There will be cake.
Top picture in dress always worn to birthday parties. Approx. age 5 or 6. Montreal
cake server courtesy of my friend Jo, who knows me too well.
1/19/2021 06:12:32 pm
Happy Birthday, Lynn! 🎉. And many more! 🎶🎵
1/20/2021 03:10:37 pm
Thank you. Still waiting for the day when we can sit down over coffee and catchup.
1/20/2021 02:32:57 pm
Lynn, first let me say I’m wishing you a very Happy Birthday and you need to know or probably you do, you don’t look anywhere near 72 ! Maybe 52 but definitely under 60. You are a lucky girl!
1/20/2021 03:09:42 pm
WOW. Thank you. I FEEL 72...everything aches...but I plan to continue putting one foot in front of the other as long as I can. Hugs
1/20/2021 02:58:34 pm
What's your skincare routine? You look GREAT!
1/20/2021 03:13:21 pm
LOL Thank you ! Don't really have a routine. I change up products. Was told a long time ago to avoid hot water on my face (unless steaming.) Never go to be without using some kind of face cream (this from Sophia Loren's book)...lately using No & products. I use plain old WitchHazel pretty often. I'm terrible about using sunscreen and it's starting to show. No big secrets to share.
1/20/2021 04:19:36 pm
For me, there’s a big difference between focusing on the number, which I find pretty scary (74) and focusing on my spirit, which feels so much younger. I know your spirit is young too, and I know you will keep it that way.
1/21/2021 09:07:09 am
Thank you, Margie. You know, part of the issue is thinking I am younger than I am and trying to do things I probably shouldn't do.... But, yes. It's all about staying young in spirit.
1/21/2021 07:56:21 am
...72....73...NOT OLD! My Mom is 93. We play Scrabble (online) every day. We Zoom, we share books (left in foyer of her seniors bldg. It'll be a while 'til we connect in person). 😪 Anyway, wishing you a happy birthday. You are young at heart, and more active than many young people (who sadly, spend way too much time on their rear ends with a phone and an iPad), Cheers to you - you young thing! xo
1/21/2021 09:08:43 am
Thank you ! I think for me the number represented one's life expectancy. I sure as hell hope I have longer than 72 years ! But.... Your mother is amazing. Pretty sure you inherited her excellent genes.
1/21/2021 10:43:42 am
This is the BEST story, and how apropos! Loved it. TY for sharing. You should copy this to the comments on my FB page with the blog post. It's too good not to share! After this I will breathe easier once I hit 73!
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